So here I am again saying "I cant believe how fast time flies!" Tomorrow is July. Freaking July! What happened to May and June? Or April for that matter?!? This year has seriously gone by so fast, and what a difference it has made! A year ago, I was fresh out of surgery and had thoughts of cancer, medication, radiation, isolation, San Diego, and wishes to go back to work. I never thought the day would come where my anxiety and all of my fears associated with what we went through were pretty much gone. I mean dont get me wrong, I still am afraid of the thought that I take medication everyday for the rest of my life, and that my calcium has to be regulated ALL of the time. I have to take vitamin D supplements, and calcium supplements on top of thyroid medication. I miss the carefree days where I didnt have to worry about that, but its my life now, and I have gotten used to it. I got onto a routine (Yes its very OCD I have been told) of waking up, taking my Synthroid right away (you have to take it on an empty stomach and cant eat for an hour after taking it) so I take it at 5am...no matter what state I am in...if we are on vacation, yep my alarm goes off at 5am ARIZONA time...I'm that anal. Ill admit it. Then an hour later around 6:05 or or 6:10 I take my other three over the counter supplements on top of my prescription vitamin D. Then I get my coffee and head off to work. :) I have a schedule and I try to stick to it! I also have to take my calcium at lunch time, and right before bed. Yes I have times for those too that I can be "flexible" with, but only have about a half an hour to spare before I start freaking out. I am a control freak. I know this. Matt knows this, and thank God he loves me for me and fully embraces my controlling nature by balancing me out with his awesome laid-back-ness. I can be laid back, I promise!
This year has already been a complete 360 from last year...Matt is almost done with school (1 more semester!) I completed my Montessori Training and got a new job as a Kindergarten Montessori teacher in a District (my dream, and what I have worked so hard for). Matt is working for a TV show and he isn't even technically done with school, and we get to go to San Diego in 2 weeks and actually ENJOY it this year! We enjoyed it last year, but it didnt have the same vibe that it did in previous years. It was rainy, cloudy, cold, and just weird because of the surgery. Dont get me wrong I love a good cloudy beach day, but everyday last year was kind of ridiculous. I also didnt feel fully like myself, so this year I plan on really letting go and having a blast! Matt is excited to go as well, and we cant wait to just hang out and leave all of our worries at home.
As you may or may not know by now, I had my 1 year scan done this week. When I got there, my endocrineologist was supposed to have sent my blood results to the radiology department. Did they?? NO! Of course not. I mean something as simple as that. I should have known. So the hospital took my blood for a pregnancy test (procedure!) and a TSH draw because the endo dropped the ball. They wouldnt even call the radiologist back when they asked for the results! I sat in the waiting room for 3 hours because that is how long it takes to get the TSH level. The TSH is the number that is important for the scan. Its the number that shows up when you are very hypo-thyroid (in my case no thyroid and off my meds) the higher the number, the more symptoms and crappy you feel. I was a 115! That is very high! I was grumpy and ready to get the stupid scan over with! Once the go ahead was given, they stuck me in the creaky tube for 25 minutes with my arms strapped to my sides. Sooo uncomfortable. I closed my eyes and tried to think of things like the beach, my new classroom, and I was praying hard for the cancer to be gone. I was praying for a lot of people actually. Finally that stupid thing rolled me out and I was done! Or so I thought........ The radiologist then told me that I had to come back the next day because they saw something in my abdomen/bowels. Ummmm what the hell?!? They then said "oh dont worry its normal, its because you are stopped up more than likely" They told me to go home and drink a bottle of laxative, and come back for a second scan. I was soooooo upset! So scared, and so upset! I went and picked up the bottle, drank it and stayed home alll night! I went in the next day, and while they were taking my scan the radiologist said "wow you are as clean as a whistle from what I can see" Whew what a relief! So after all of that, I did get a phone call from my endo saying my scan did come back negative and that I could go back on my meds! Hallelujah! I already feel better and it has only been two days back on medication.
So after my very stressful past two weeks, I am back to work and starting to feel less tired, and cranky. I also have my appetite slightly back! I dont eat very much when I am off my medication, I remember that from last year too, yet I still gain weight because I dont have a metabolism. I think I made myself sick these past two weeks after all of that stress as well. I have a hoarse throat and I am just blah! But at the same time I feel way more relaxed so a hoarse throat does not bother me. It is starting to sink in that I am starting a new job in just 4 weeks, and that I have a whole classroom to set up. I dont even really know what materials I have available to me, so I have to plan like I have everything, then go down from there. I know I have a lot of materials, and they said they could get me what I need so I am not too worried about that. I think I am more afraid of the enormous responsibility I will have compared to being an assistant. Its so HUGE! But so exciting! Being a teacher has already proven to be one of the most rewarding careers, and I cant wait for what is to come!
Well that is it for now! Here is to being cancer free again!!! Love you all and thanks for the continued support!
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