Ok so its been a few days since I have updated this thing. I was going to wait until we found out what the whole body scan told us, but I felt like I needed to update before that too.. Dont worry I'll let you all know. So today was the official body scan to see if there is any more bad thyroid tissues in my body. Can I just say that I was so anxious last night, and all day today. I went to bed at like 8 last night because I was so exhausted from going back to work, thinking about the scan, and just stressing out in general. I know I gotta learn to lower my stress cause in the end that is what is going to make me sick. The girls I work with tell me this on a daily basis and to be quite honest once all this is done that is going to be my focus. There is no reason to stress out over the little things!!! Especially after everything I have been through this summer!! So with that being said my experience today went like this...
I got to the hospital having a fricken panic attack (what is new I hate that place! haha its the same hospital where I had my surgery, biopsies, etc.) I registered in the admitting room, they know me in there, and made my way over to radiology. The man that works the desk knows me too, he calls me Yeager. Kinda makes me feel comfortable in a weird way lol. I turned in my paperwork and waited. I HATE waiting. It gives me too much time to panic some more and think about things. The radiology guy came and got me and told me to take off my jewlery and lie down on a conveyor belt type thing. He told me it would take about 20 minutes, that they were going to scan me from head to toe...this is because the thyroid tissue can be found throughout the body, and they want to make sure that the iodine radiation did its job and killed off the rest of these cancerous cells. He told me that 99% of people are OK, and that the scan is just to make sure. OF course immediately I thought ok what if I am the 1% that has to go through this all again...I have been seriously stopping these thoughts the minute they come into my head..I have been focusing on positive thoughts and praying everyday. The Lord has his plan for me, and he tells me I am going to be OK :) But I am only human and these bad thoughts do cross my mind...anyways after sitting in a tube and having a camera basically on my face for 10 minutes, I was done with the anxiety and done with the scan. Remember how I said before that during my radiation and isolation that I had to suck on hard candy and sour candy???? Well apparently its supposed to get the iodine out of your salivary glands and taste buds so you dont lose them. I was told that I really needed to focus on this during isolation and really eat a lot of candy, well the candy made me sick and I kept thinking I wasnt doing it enough...My instincts were right. The guy asked me if I had sucked on candy and I said yes and that I had sunflower seeds too...he told me that I didnt do it enough and that all he saw was a lot of the iodine in my salivary glands...:( He asked if I had any pain or swelling, and I said that my jaw still kinda hurts but I thought it was the TMJ that I have (when I chew a lot my jaw gets sore basically) He said it was prob the iodine and that I needed to keep chewing gum and suck on more candy like crazy, so on my way home I stopped at the gas station and got some warheads and gum. Great more tummy aches :( but hopefully its not too late and I didnt mess anything up in my mouth, because it will be messed up for life. I also noticed that my food does not taste the same, which I was thinking was because I didnt suck on enough candy...so we will see if in this next week I can be super good at this, and get the iodine totally out of my glands. After he told me about the salivary glands he also said, it could be that you still have a lot of iodine in your glands, or you had a really good surgeon that really got all that thyroid tissue out of your neck area because I dont see any....good sign?? I dont know but I would like to think so :) Lets just pray that everything else is gone, and all the tissue is out of my body. I will be getting a body scan once a year for the rest of my life because EARLY DETECTION IS KEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am 24, never thought I would have cancer at this age, so please be aware of your bodies!!!!!!!!
Ok on another positive note, I started my thyroid medication on Tuesday. So far so good. No weird reactions or anything like that (yes I am that bad and I get anxiety about taking new medication for fear that I will go into the allergy shock that sends me to the hosp.) I really need to stop lol. Hopefully my body will regulate to this medicine soon and I will be well on my way to feeling better.
Now onto Sadie. Our crazy little dog. She is considered "our daughter" and is seriously our pride and joy!! I dont know if you all knew but when Matt and I went to San Diego a few weeks ago, we left Sadie with Matt's twin brother Mike. Mike was great!! Mid-week though we got a phone call...."I found a worm in your dog's poop." OHHH great. ok here we were in San Diego and our dog has worms. I immediately called the vet, set up and appointment and told them I would pay when I got back. They were happy to take her, tested her poop, gave her a de-wormer and started her on heart worm. All was well beside the 180 dollar vet bill...well two days ago Sadie got into something or ate something that made her face swell so big that you could barely see her eyes!! I noticed it when I took her outside, came running in, woke Matt up and told her we needed to take her to the vet. He took one look at her and agreed. We took her in, they gave her two shots, and then she played at day care all day. All was well right?? WRONG...we got her home about 6 hours later, after a long day at day care, and she swelled right back up!!! what the heck???!?!?! So i frantically called the vet, and she had no idea what was wrong. They were closing, and she didnt want me to have to go to the Emergency vet...big bucks....so she said to give her 2 benadryl every six hours until the swelling went down. Easy enough, we did that..she puked two hours later. She ended up puking all night, and itching and spazzing. Matt called the ER vet at 2 in the morning and they told us to wait it out as well. She had to of eaten something. They told him to give her a bath and that might stop her itching. So at 2AM my amazing boyfriend told me to go to bed (I had to get up for work at 5am) and not worry about a thing. He gave her a bath, made a bed for her and him in the living room, and he stayed up with her allllll night!!! Such and amazing man. Makes me think how good he is gonna be with kids :) JK that cannot happen for at least a year according to the radiologist :) She ended up being ok in the end, but it was the longest night!!! Lets just say our dog has put us through a lot, and of course she would eat something the day before I go back to work.
Now as for going back to work and my students?? THEY ARE AMAZING THIS YEAR! I mean they have always been amazing, but oh my goodness we could not ask for a better class!!! All the new 3 year olds are soo good! Except for the occasional accident and a few little ones crying for mom, they are so cute! I am so ready to be back into the routine of being at work and seeing them everyday. Everyday is so different and they are so innocent!! I love working with them and teaching them about life and school and watching their faces when you answer their questions. So amazing. As for the parents of my kids. They are great too! One of my sweet sweet parents got me a necklace that says peace and has cute little jewels on it for everything I am going through, She also wrote a sweet card from their family about my recovery and being their child's teacher. I also had another parent seek me out on the playground my first day back, point to his neck, and say "Welcome to the club." He had the same thing! I wanted to cry, but of course held it in :) I am so thankful that we have such caring parents, and I love teaching their babies. I look forward to another amazing year.
Alright so this has been another long blog, I promise to try to update more, but now that I am back in school, and teaching 8 hours a day its gonna be hard. Thanks again friends and family for all your support and prayers. I love you all, Happy Friday!
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